So I'm starting this blog 5 minutes before I am supposed to leave to go pick K up from school.  I'm simply starting so I can force myself to continue it later, hopefully today.  You see, I'm about to lose my mind.  And this blog is supposed to be about what is going on with ME in my world, right?  So bare with me on this bumpy ride of a blog entry. 

I know everyone says that they are super busy, super stressed, super tired and super whatever else, but if you add up all those things plus adding super pregnant to them, it gets a whole lot worse.  I literally can not sort out the thoughts in my brain.  Half the time I can't even think of 1 simple, silly (and often stupid) word to use in a sentence.  There is so much to get done, and not just the daily so much, I mean SO MUCH.  There is a list I can list on here, and a list too personal to list on here (though, that list would make for a much better read, I might add).  This baby is coming in a maximum of 7 weeks.  We don't even have a nursery.  B is still in the nursery.  And K is still in the room that B is going to move into.  And the room that K is going to move into, the office, is a disaster of half packed boxes, half crap, and half baby stuff that I have no where to put.  Once I get the office cleaned out, I have to get Ryan to move the furniture out and pack up the computers and printers.  Then I have to find someone to come in and paint the room.  Not an easy task, considering 1 whole wall has built in shelving/desk with holes and what not that I wouldn't even know where to begin if I were painting it!  And the color of the office and K's current room is this atrocious greenish brown.  It's so dark, ugly and nasty.  They have to be painted.  Once the office is painted (dear lord please let that be done by the end of the month) then K can move in there, and then we have to do the whole thing all over again with B's new room.  Then, maybe when G is 15 years old, she can move into her  nursery.  Ugh.  Sigh.  But, moving on!  We recently got rid of our dining room set.  The plan was to make the dining room a temporary (loooong temporary) game room.  Well, we've moved 1 piece of furniture in there.  We still need to move the pinball's from the breakfast nook into the dining room, move B's toys into the nook area, move the piano somewhere, and find somewhere to put an office desk area.  I feel like screaming.  And don't even get me started on the garage or master bedroom.  And to top it all off, I've discovered that as much as I love animals, having kids has made me realize I don't really have the time and patience to dedicate to them.  I feel so so so guilty about this, but our dogs are so high maintenance, and quite honestly I'd rather spend my energy on Keenan, Branson, G and Ryan.  I mean, Honey killed a skunk a few weeks ago, and I can still smell it on her.  And she rolls in everything, kills whatever cute animal might be living on our property, and barks and barks and barks.  She especially barks when B is sleeping.  And she wants out in the middle of the night (I'm already sleep deprived), and she gets out into the pasture, or out the front gate, or jumps on all our guests, climbs on the table to eat Branson's lunch.  The list goes on.  I love her, she is a beautiful wonderful dog that I just don't have the time to dedicate to.  

Anyhow.  Add to ALL this (probably seems like a really short list to you, huh?) that I have a super busy 2 year old that undoes everything I do at the house, and a super busy 14 year old that is going in 20 different directions 20 times a day, and I'm pretty sure I'm having a mental break down!  Who is going to pick Keenan up from school after G is born?  Not me with 2 kids!  Can't take the bus, it doesn't stop near our house at 4.  How am I going to grocery shop?  How am I going to make sure K and B feel loved, when most of my time is going to be spent with a newborn attached to me?  How am I going to make sure my family has at least 1 meal a day?  Can't clean the house for a while with a c-section incision, can't drive, AGHHHHHHHH!

I feel slightly better.  And FYI, this blog has taken 3 days to finish.  Record timing really.

PESTO PASTA

So, made a yummy pasta tonight. Ryan is running his big race this weekend in Illinois, so we are having pasta all week.

Tonight I made fussili pasta with fresh veggies and pesto. Recipe as follows:

ingredients:

fussili pasta

2 zucchini

2 yellow squash

1/4 green bell pepper

1/4 red bell pepper

1 cup cherry/grape tomato's

1/2 cup artichoke hearts

pam or olive oil for sauteing

1/4 cup pine nuts

3 tbls prepared (or home made if you have time) pesto

Parmesan cheese to top it off

directions:

boil pasta as instructed. While pasta boils, chop zucchini, squash, and bell pepper into into 1 inch pieces. heat oil in non stick pan over medium-high heat. Add squash and bell peppers. While those cook up, cut tomato's and artichoke hearts in half. Once squash is browned, add salt/pepper to taste, add the rest of the veggies and saute for another 2 or 3 minutes or so. When veggies are cooked and pasta is drained, combine with pine nuts in a large bowl, and add 3 table spoons of prepared (or home made, I personally like home made but didn't have time tonight) pesto. Toss, top with Parmesan and serve!